CELESTEUBANDO.

party weekend.

Hello :) there are many things to say abou the past few days. party was saturday and i was happy to say that it was a complete success! thank you for all of you who came. it started off slow but ended with a bang. baby gave me 200 and his card for me to go shopping :) I LOVE YOU. cousin did my make-up and i think i made some money. food was amazing and dj was alright. but its all good. for the people who made the rough edges on my party…..FUCK YOU. come into my house and not say hello and good-bye. that was the whole reason i didnt invite you bitches. and what you guys said in chris’ car was right. i dont like you guys. dont be disrespectful, i came to your house and said hello and goodbye even though i dislike you. i aint disrespectful. overall i drank a beer and 5 hennessy bottles with the family. baby slept over the house and woke up to his face in the morning. birthday party was amazing but my real birthday imma be in LA and black friday here i come im SHOPPING!!! :) -celeste.

the woman with the tatooed hands ^^

I used to know this woman who had the most beautiful
tattoos on the top sides of both of her hands
she was forty three years old and as far as I know
had never yet been with a man
its not that she wasn’t attractive she was beatiful
but its the way that she interacted
she was aggressively passive to the point where she
would of intimidated any mitt that ever tried to catch her
on the right hand she had a tattoo of a nude girl
she claimed it is what God resembled
but on the left she had a mirrored image of the same female
and this one she explained looked like the devil
I remember once watching her touch her own breasts
how the tattoos smiled as they stared down her stomach
as if anticipating would they be allowed to caress
the sweet flower that they both seemed to hunger (sweet flower)
now maybe I was high but it felt so right
heaven and hell both take to this womans womb
it didn’t make sense how she could commence
touching herself with me wide awake in the same room
now if I’ve learned anything in my years (my years)
I learned I no longer believe in surprise (in surprise)
but what happened next damn near stole my tears
the tattoos came alive right in front of my eyes
they both slowly stood up and climbed off her hands
and showed me why she never took some time with a man
they climbed deep inside of this woman’s garden
she closed her eyes and she gently bit her bottom lip
I stepped I left and I don’t regret leaving
and I’ll never forget all the things I saw that evening
a glimpse of religion a piece of coming closer
to understanding more about what intrigues me most
I didn’t get turned on I just got turned
I wasn’t as aroused as I was concerned
for each one of em I’ve hurt
and every time I’ve been burned
I’ve got a lot to teach but even more to learn
so now I keep my eyes open hoping to take in all I can
about Woman taking in all she can
and for as long as I breath i’ll save a seat in my memory
for that woman with the tattooed hands

[chorus: repeat 5x till song fades]
There’s good and evil in each individual fire
identifies needs and feeds our desires
as long as we keep our spirit inspired
she can bite her bottom lip all she wants

bitter sweet.

well yesterday wasn’t all that great. I woke up thinking that it would be a great day, just working for 5 hours. ended up working the whole day -_-…i was pissed. although I couldn’t complain i mean its my family. i cant got against my family, RIGHT?  Anyway it doesn’t matter to them. It feels like i do everything for this family….aside from my mom. she does a lot and im proud of her. With all the hardship she goes through im happy she is my mom. today is just a chill day working till 4 and about to get off right now. do a little sutdying, then chill with jay.

me and jay. we’re great. its going to be 1YR tomorrow and im hella excited. I feel hella bad though because i didnt get anything :/. i told him i didn’t but he said its okay, i know on the inside he does. even if i dont have the money to buy him anything i got something up my sleeve, something special. im exctied. this month is my month and nothing is going to stop me. NEW cousin, NEW age, reunited family, and a NEW year for me and my baby. Im just hella happy, and seeing all of my old friends and family. November 21st is going to be crackin. :D

incredible.

Niggas with a passion.

ive leveled out my real friends. My niggas for life. ahaha damn never thought they would be though. CARLA SAMSON. SAMANTHA INCIONG. JOSEPH VILLANUEVA. CHRIS CANLAS. AJ GAMBOA. MARISTELLA MONTERO. FRISKOE OCHOA. AND JOSE GERUNDIO.

people that ive met recently, known from the past, and/or kept a friendship for a long time. thank you. most of you were down when it came down to the last point. some of you were there when i would have never thought call you in my worst time. some of you i thought i would never call in my greatest moments. but you were. DAMN. its been years and months since our friendship begun and i hope it continues.

-celeste.

Amazing Beginning.

Its been about 2 weeks since school started every corner is looking bright. Asking questions and getting everything done faster. Its just a waist of time to go straight to a four year. especially if its on lottery system and you might not get all the classes you want. its just a shame. Loving Western Career College, loving my boyfriend, loving my family, and feeling great about myself. everything is just falling into place. NEW car on my birthday!!! dont even got my fucking Ls but im still driving, so its all good. cruising on the freeway feels good. just the road to yourself and no one to bother you it feels good. I was in class the other day and it was a night class, our teacher made us remember the best vacation we have ever had and turns out mine was the one with my family, camping. i miss the summers where we would all just be chilling by the fire and telling stories and playing games its a memory that will never leave my mind. im lucky to have my family and i appreciate all that they have done for me.

new direction.

Hello everyone.

Damn haven’t been on this shit in a minute. Well there’s a new direction in my life and its looking BRIGHT. If most of you haven’t known i got accepted in to Western Career College in the LVN program. HELLA HARD TO GET INTO. but the part that makes it hard was HELL WEEK, on Friday October 23, 2009 i passed all of my exams and i am officially an LVN student!!! Im so happy for the whole new process.

I have overcome everything and i have experienced a lot of shit. emotionally, mentally, and physically. but everything is looking bright from now on. I got my boy, i got my homies, and i got my family. and now i got my future on track. ahaha :)

P.S: Kacie Alyssa Towry Manzo. Love you baby girl. 10.11.09. “we only hear of angels, we held one in our arms.” Stay strong cousin Jello. it’ll be okay. shes your guardian angel.

FUCK THIS SHIT! HOW DO I GET HAPPY AGAIN?